Love's Illusion

[texasgal]

Sylcia, aw..... You're so sweet.

[WilsonFreak]

Hey All!! Well, the Crush is over!!! It's over. I'm actually quite proud of myself......... when it became not fun anymore, I started working on myself to end it, and I did it!!! I'm pleased with myself and I feel strong. It could have gone on alot longer, and I could have kept hurting myself, and crying, but I said Enough! And you all have helped me SO much..........I can't thank you enough. It's been wonderful to have you!! You all have actually helped me more than anything else.

Sure, my feelings for Mike are still tender, but now I'm just enjoying him as a friend when he is in Original Mike mode, and when he is moody and depressed, I just keep my distance and say F*ck him! I'll get back to him when he's in a good mood. I just can't take the moodiness. I'd be happy to talk with him about it, but he likes to keep things to himself, and maybe, just maybe, share after the fact.

Like, all last week, after he was cold to me, he told me the other day that he had a horrible week. That he was all stressed out and feeling panicky because his Dad was elected into the Sarnia-Lambton Hall of Fame, and the Scottish Canadian Hall of Fame for being one of those strength competition athletes. And right now his Dad is terribly sick with cancer......I pray for him to somehow be okay. And Mike had to do a speech for one of the events in front of 200 people. He told me, Man was I stressed. I said Yeah, I got that. lol I felt very happy that I was just able to treat it like that, rather than having spent the week miserating (hehehe my word) about was he mad at me or miserable that he wasn't paying any attention to me. When I said that, he laughed.

So, I really enjoy Mike as a friend when he's being normal, but when he's made up his mind to be miserable, I just do other things. I wish he could be happy, but I can't help him. Well, I can only help him by being the best friend I can be, which I am happy to do for any of my friends. And I'm SO relieved that he and Rob are staying as my boarders. I REALLY need that help.

I was talking to Rob the other day, and I asked if he could keep a secret. He said he wouldn't tell anyone. So I told him that when they first moved in, I had a crush on Mike. He said I know. I covered my face with my hands and laughed. I asked how Mike felt about it. Rob said that they laughed about it a few times and that Mike was a pretty easy going guy. Rob said 'I'm not gay, but Mike is a pretty good looking guy, he's used to people having crushes on him.' Oh boy, men and their inflated egos!!

So I told Rob I was embarrassed that Mike knew, and he said, Aw, there's nothing to be embarrassed about. and I said, Oh, well, it's better than hating someone. So, ....... I thought I was hiding it so well, but my brother said anyone with eyes could tell...........

So, the Crush was so much fun for the first couple months. And my feelings are still far from sorted out regarding Mike, but I'm doing good!! Feeling good! and so very Thankful to all of you for helping!! Especially you, Tex.......you were there every time I needed advice so desperately, as were the others..............I really appreciate it. And I thank those who sent me PM's as well. You're a wonderful Bunch!!!!!!!!

[IMAQT]

OK. This has gone far enough. I demand a picture of this 'Mike'. And don't tell me you don't have one. We always find a way to take at least one picture of our crushes. If you don't want to post it, email it to me.

Did I say I demand it? Demand.

[WilsonFreak]

Alas, QT, I haven't managed to take a picture of Mike or Rob yet. But when I do, I will e-mail it to you. I keep thinking I Do want a pic of them.......I get pics of all my friends, so I know I will do it somehow. Probably at Christmas. Rob is supposed to scan a pic of him and Mike when Rob was 13 and Mike was 20, when Mike first started being Rob's Big Brother. (but I'm not holding my breath..........)

[WilsonFreak]

Hi My Sweets!

Another update.................yes, the Crush is Still Over. Actually, it seems kind of blah without it now..............it really was ALOT of FUN when it was happening...........

Nothing much happening now. I see my boarders every once in a while, we chat for a few minutes and wave hello, but that's about it. Mike and Rob just like to come home from work and hang out in their house (my basement), and I really only see them in passing. And I know that's what they really wanted...............I just needed to have my heart broken a couple of times before I was beaten into submission...................

It's so sad, really..................I wanted to have movies and pizza and drinks with them, but they just aren't interested in hanging out with me. I wanted them to come upstairs, flop on my couch, and chat............all that kinda stuff........ So, now, I just leave them alone....................I never ask anymore if they want to do anything......................I learned the H-A-R-D way that they just aren't interested in playing with me.

*sigh*...............You can't force someone to like you. Oh, sure, they still do favors for me, they like me, they trust me, although I haven't asked for any favors in weeks. I may need to ask Mike to give me a ride home from the garage on Monday, but I don't know.............I've got other friends to turn to.

It's sad. No exclamation marks in this post.......

I learned today that Mike quit his job that he had with my brother and is now working part time at a gas station just around the corner. He'll be good at that........he'll be charming the socks (or whatever) off all the women! But I just found out through my brother, who found out through Rob...........because Mike is hibernating.

Oh.........also...........2 weeks ago, Rob, my 18 year old baby boarder, broke my heart................he always tells me he has anger management issues,,,,,,,,but this time he did it to me.
It was 7 AM, and the stereo woke me up with thumping,,and I got pissed, because I was like, who put a stereo on that loud at 7 AM on Monday morning?! So, I stomped out to the kitchen door, opened it, and listened downstairs. And yes, the stereo was extra loud. So, (with my hot little temper in full flare) I slammed the door and went back to my room. Where I lay for 60 full seconds before I though, I'm never getting back to sleep with my heart hammering from being woken up.........so, I went and sat on the top step, and in about 1 min, I heard Mike say,
"Hey, Rob, did you hear a door slam?" and before Rob could answer, I just said (nicely, calmly - I'm always nice and calm with my boarders) Uh, that was me. And then Mike looked up the stairs at me, and he was like, Oh, I..I didn't think it was any louder than usual........Oh, I'm sorry,,,did it just wake you up? And I was like, Yeah, and then he said I'll go turn it off right now. And then, I was just sitting there, still half or three quarters asleep, and then I heard him say to Rob, Oh, man, I didn't think it was any louder than usual, that's weird, that's too bad.

And then, it was like the world tilted off its axis, because Rob said, What a f*cking Joke, - move out. Obviously not knowing I was sitting right there. It was horrible, it really was, horrible to hear those words........Move Out. I just felt tears in my eyes, and I was like, this is not happening - this is not the way my Monday morning is starting. And I said Rob, why would you say that? Rob? And then he was like, Well, your dog is always scratching and shaking the floor, and then you have kids over and they're running around..........and then he said, I'm not going on. And I said, Why didn't you tell me this? I've asked you so many times if everything was allright. And he said, We didn't say anything because we're nice. And I was like, Just because you tell me something's wrong, doesn't make you not nice. And I was happy with myself that I didn't lose my temper any more and snap at him..........I was really calm and nice and civilized. And then I said, Mike, why would he say that? And Mike was like, Uh, maybe because we're in a hurry, and we're late for work. not the best answer,,,,,but I think he just didn't want to get involved.

So, Rob broke my heart. I was crying really hard and I went to my room, and they went off to work. Probably not the best start for the day for them either. And he's never said he was sorry. He told Mike, who told my brother, that he shouldn't have said those things to me.........but he never said it to my face.

So, now I'm worried again that I may lose my boarders. Because everything is up in the air......... Nothing I can do, though. Hopefully Mike will get another job in town, but Rob told my brother that Mike even put in a resume in a town about 45 mins away..............I don't want to lose them.........they're reliable.............and I do still really like them. I'm also thinking that if Mike moved out, Rob would likely move out too..........it would be awesome if he would stay, though, even if I did lose Mike. My brother said he didn't think Rob wants to move out. But Rob is impossible to read.

So, if you could all send me positive vibes and prayers, I'd really appreciate it!!!!! I just don't want to lose my security............my monthly rent money........I'm sorry to ask again, but I really need you all to help me through this again.............last time I asked for positive vibes and I got good results the same day!!!!!!!!! I just really believe in prayer and I really just love the support of good friends!! And I'm sorry I don't have any more excited, romantic stories,,,,,,,,,,,,,it's just..........blahness now.

But at least I haven't jumped (yet) into another obsession!! I'm just being me for a while!

I hope you all will send me support and positive prayers!! I'll love you for it!! Please forgive the long post!!


Your Kooky, Mixed up, Grateful Friend,
Lisa

[texasgal]

WF, positive hugs and prayers are being sent to you speedily with love.

[Mrs.Sylfian]

wilsonfreak said:

So, if you could all send me positive vibes and prayers, I'd really appreciate it!!!!! I just don't want to lose my security............I'm sorry to ask again, but I really need you all to help me through this again..same day!!!!!!!!! I just really believe in prayer and I really just love the support of good friends!! And I'm sorry I don't have any more excited, romantic stories,,,,,,,,,,,,,it's just.........Lisa

Dear Lisa....don`t apologise for your situation....you have friends here ..and we will help you go trough this ...i know i am......

It was rather mean from Rob to say those things...i would cry to.....he should apologise for it.i wonder if that changed the atmosphere in the house?do you feel hurt when you see Rob?maybe you should talk about it with hm and let him know that you are hurt....and Mike not wanting to get involved in that is good,you don`t want put your sadness&disappointment on him...right?

i know this is a difficult situation for you,and woman`s heart don`t forget so fast about anything that has great emotion behind.so its ok for you to feel like that...the most important is that you are smart,wonderful girl and you have to start everyday by thinking that.....let me know about the situation...ok?

i am sending you positive vibes&thoughts every single day .....and keep you in my prayers....


love Sylcia...

[WilsonFreak]

Hello Again!

Well, has anyone been wondering when another update might go up? Has anyone been biting their lip and grimacing, wondering when another update might go up? lol! Well, here it is. An update on my Love's Illusion. I'm thinking it's very cool that I gave that title to the thread, because it all certainly Was an Illusion.

So, I guess last time I left off, I had gotten the message that Mike and Rob did NOT want to play with me, or socialize with me, or hang out with me.

So, I was ignoring them, leaving them alone, only seeing them to wave briefly or when they brought the rent up.

Then, in early December, Mike's Dad died from his cancer. I heard it through my bro, who heard it from Rob. In between, say, October and the death time, whenever I saw Mike, he had his dead eyes look, no smiles, onlynegative comments if we spoke at all.
And............ smoking and pot smoking happening all the time........ in my home. I could not Stand That!! They promised when they moved in that they would not do that. And I was getting more and more angry about it... how they were essentially lying to me and dissing me and being jackas*es to smoke in my home.

I can't keep all the events straight in my head - but I was totally disgusted with Mike and with Rob. I did send them a Christmas card, and I sent Mike a Sympathy card........ neither of which was acknowledged.

Then, just before Christmas, Mike told me that he was going to be moving out by Feb 1, into an apartment with his gf......... who he still treats like crap. And he said that she had her hooks in him and he really didn't want to move out. But, of course, he doesn't have enough balls to say no. I was pretty sad and discouraged. I had no idea if Rob would stay or not, or how much he would pay, or even if I wanted him to stay. Rob opened his door really hard one day and now there is a hole in my wall. He didn't apologize for doing it, or even tell me he did it. Jerk. And Mike left the plug in the washing sink, and did a wash, and my carpet was flooded badly. And....... he didn't tell me about or, Nor apologize when I asked what had happened. Jerk. Then, one morning, I was woken up by Rob swearing loudly and then my bedroom floor shook, like he was punching the ceiling below me. So, I went down, and he had 'punched' my shower bc he couldn't get the hot water to turn on. There was no problem with the water......... he's just an idiot sometimes. So, I totally didn't trust him, and wasn't at all sure if I wanted him to stay.............. and yet.......... if he stayed, I wouldn't have to wonder if I would get another boarder, and wouldn't have to be without rent money for a month or even more.

Anyway, I spoke to him after a day or two and he wanted to stay, but he wanted to pay $300 instead of the $250 (half of $500 ) that he'd been paying. And I wanted $375........ so I said, why don't we compromise on $350. He said he would think about it and get back to me the next day or day after.

So, I saw him 2 days later, and he said $350 would be fine. Which was awesome, bc I was prepared to take the $300, at least until I could find someone else. And I knew I would be looking for someone else if I was only getting $300. So, that was good. $350, and I was really surprised that he agreed to it, I didn't think he would, and I keep someone I know and at least partially, at least for the money part, trusted.

......... y'al bored yet??? ..................

Anyway, a couple days later, I got so mad about all the pot smoking that I went downstairs and told them it had to stop. And Mike blew up. He yelled, he swore........ and I stayed very calm and civil, and I just said about 3 times, We can keep this civil. But he yelled a bunch of stuff at me in between me saying we could keep it civil. And ...................... he threw it up in my face about me having had a crush on him......................... he said that I would "attack" them when they got home from work, and talk to them, and "make them stay and talk more". He said that I haunted him, and that he wasn't comfortable, and that he would sneak around quietly downstairs because he didn't want me to try to visit with him. (even though I never ever went downstairs or even tried to visit him down there). I just said, I can't believe you're saying this. So, I just told them I needed them to promise they wouldn't smoke downstairs, and Mike said he couldn't believe I was asking them that. Even though he had promised in June when they moved in that they wouldn't.

Also, when Mike told me he was moving out, he said he was going to pay me the last month's rent because he was giving me such short notice,,,,,,, even though he and Rob had both paid first and last. And I told him that was wonderful and I really appreciated that. So, when I was downstairs, and he had been yelling at me, I just right out asked him, Are you still going to give me the rent you promised.......... because I knew in my heart he had changed his mind, and figured I might as well verify it. He told me that he was totally disgusted that I would even ask that, that he just couldn't believe I was asking that. And I said, Did you not tell me you were going to do it?? It was your suggestion, and it is the right thing to do. Anyway, he told me that he couldn't afford it and I wasn't going to get it. What else could I do? I just left. I said, When you leave, maybe just slip the key under the door, and then we'll never have to see each other again. And he was standing with his head down, behind a chair, and he just said I think that would be best.

Well, I was pretty devastated, but I didn't let it get to me, because I knew he was suffering from depression and that his Dad had died. But I just thought, how sad, that he has let himself slip that far from the wonderful, thoughtful, funny person he had been.

*** I think I'd better post this and continue the rest.. and there is more....... in the next post. ***

[WilsonFreak]

Hello again! (my fingers are getting sore! and your eyes are probably getting sore! )

So, a couple days later, Rob invited me outside to have a drink. And I told him, I would not have come outside if he hadn't asked, because of what Mike had said about me "attacking" them. Rob said that he hadn't felt that way, that it was Mike who felt that way. And he said that Mike could be an ass. And that it was sad how much he had changed since getting together with the gf. And how Rob thought it is pathetic how Mike tries to kind of parent him, even though Mike is so screwed up. So, for the next week or so, Rob would ask me or I would get home from work and ask him, and we would go outside for a few mins and talk and have a drink. Just a short visit, mostly looking at the stars, and talking a bit. And he offered to do the drawing of my dog that I had mentioned a few times that I would just Love to have. So I gave him some pictures and he was working on it, and when I would get home from work around 8 pm, he would show me the progress.

Then, I had to tell him one day that a good friend of mine was interested in renting the basement, and I needed his permission for her to look at the place. I told him that it wsn't for sure, and that if she did take it, it would be over 2 mths away, so he would have lots of time to look for a new place. I really had no choice............. I was afraid of him ruining something else with is violence, and I was angrier than a wet cat that he was continuing to smoke, cigarettes AND pot, in my home. Unfortunately, he had rolled Mike's Jimmy the night before on black ice, and so was already stressed and having a horrible time. Thank God he wasn't hurt at all, which I told him. Anyway, he started yelliing and he said that I blew it. That he had been going to stay at least until the summer and that he had been going to pay me $400........ ( wasn't going to hold my breath one that one...... ) so I was saying that it wasn't for sure that anyone would move in, but he was yelling and telling me that I was judging him and that I didn't know him. and then Mike came out of the recroom to see what was going on, and he was telling Rob to calm down, and my mouth was dry as cotton and my heart was pounding, just like I get every time we would all have an altercation. and Mike said that I had actually been very nice and calm throughout these little fights, and that I was a good person, and he liked me, and that if he hadn't been living with me, he would likely be hanging around with me and be my friend. ( hmmm, was that a compliment or an insult?? )

Anyway, I told them it was probably best that I get new boarders, because we all just kept fighting. And Rob was still mad, and Mike said, Yeah, I understand that.

**whew! loooong story............. I thank you all for listening......... this is helpful to me to get it down on hardcopy.

So................. a couple days later, Rob asked me if I would like to go outside for a drink............... ooookayyy....... anyway, he said that he really wanted to say he was sorry for the way he acted, that he had been really upset bc of his accident, and that he wanted to get his behavior off his conscience. He said he was really sorry. And he told me some other stuff, and that he didn't usually open up to people like that. So........ I told him that I was really sorry that I had to tell him about the possible new boarder right after his accident, but he said I had to, I had no choice, and that it was okay. And he said that he had found a new apartment for rent, and he was really really hoping to get it. .............. and that he wondered if I would give him a reference.................. well, at least he apologized Before he asked. So, I told him I would give him a reference. First, he did always pay right on time. Second.... I wanted his A*s out of my house!

So, things went along smoothly for a bit, Rob and I would have a drink outside once in a while, and one night I got home and he was in my kitchen, could see him in my window, and he was getting some water for my dog. It was just so sweet, having a friend in the house to talk to for a bit when I got home...........

Well,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, then ............... I got sick to death again of smelling pot smoke and cigarette smoke coming upstairs through my vents, when I had asked and demanded so many times that it not be done. So, I went downstairs.......... lol!!!!!!! you guys must be going, Oh now, not downstairs, not again!!! lol!!!

Yes, I went downstairs, bc I'm not taking sh*t off noone!!! ( good grammar, eh? )

And I told Mike that I wanted his front door key, and his gf front door key ( Rob's was lost in the car accident, and I saw his gf come in the front door once with a key. Boy, that sure p*ssed me off, that he had made a key for my house for his gf without asking!!! ) anyway, Mike blew up again and staring yelling, saying he could not believe that I just assumed he would make a key for the gf .......... I said, I saw her come in with a key! ANd he said he probably was going to be away and lent her his. And then I had had it, so I yelled back, Well, when you have done things that you promised you wouldn't, I don't know what you'll do anymore!!!!!! So he gave me the keys.... ( 2...hmm, strange, why 2, when he said he didn't make one for the gf......) and I told him again he had better promise not to smoke in the basement, and he didn't promise, and I said to Rob, same with you, you promise, no smoking in the house, right? And he said, as usual, No problem.. Which he always says and then proceeds to smoke cigs and pot......................

Plus, Mike was nowhere near as mean to me as he was with his gf. He would tell her to f*ck *off, that she should get the f*ck to bed, tht he didn't want to hear another word out of her g-d mouth. That she was irritating, and s hould stop text messaging him, and that bullshit came out of her mouth and he didn't want to hear it. I would hear things, hear them fighting......... he treats her so bad. Once she even drove away after their fight, and I was happy tht she finally grew a pair............ and then, not 5 mins later, she came back..........what an idiot. And she is so stupid to stay with him, to let him treat her like crap. And he is always emailing his old gf's, working on their cars, going to their houses, and once he even had a girl over here to the house. She is just a Stupid Girl to let herself be treated that way.

Anyway, I called my brother, I was so mad, and I said, Why don't you come over here and we'll kick them out right now, I can stand the jackas*es anymore. But he said, it's only another week, Lisa, just hang in there. But he was sooo mad at them, he said when he saw them he was going to tell them off. I just said, No........ it's not worth it. I wanted you to help me kick them out, but after the fact, it just won't be worth it for you to get yourself worked up and tell them off. they won't listen anyway.....

And, I told David that I had heard Rob on the phone, and he said nasty things. Bad things, Hurtful things............. about me. And I know he said them because I decided the day after the last fight that I was locking the door between my house and the basement. Why the heck should I let them into my home, give them access to my computer, when they would treat me like crap?? I know he was crazy made that I locked the door, because he loved to come and check his MSN. Well, enough was enough, I wasn't allowing them in anymore. The words he said were horrible. Hurtful. And coming from a kid from a broken home, with a mother who has tried to commit suicide, with anger management issues............ But, he said I was fat, ugly, and had nothing. He said, Why would he want to be my friend when I was so much older than he was. That I was old and lonely. I didn't really let those words bother me that much, because they were said out of venting, and are not true. David just said that Rob was a loser with no personality.

*** almost done, I promise! ***

Anyway, he saw Rob at work later that day, and he told him that he'd better smarten up, and that Mike had better cool his jets, bc things had been said that had only one purpose, and that was to hurt his sister. And that I did not deserve to be treated the way they had treated me.

The next day, Mike went in to work and spoke to my brother. Mike was white as a ghost, and he said that he realized when he was yelling at me, that he needed help. And he went to his doctor the very next day and is getting help. And he told David he was sorry for they way he'd treated me, and that I had helped him to realize he needed help. David called me and said what had happened. I said Mike had better apologize to me too, I was the one he did it too, not David. And I was also quietly happy that I had helped Mike in some way. David was impressed by that too. He said Mike must have been a bit surprised to receive help in any way from someone he probably never expected to get help from.

That night, Mike apologized to me, it was very sincere, and he looked so sad that he had treated me badly, and he told me that he realized when he was being mean to me how much he needed help to deal with his depression. I told him I was really sorry for everything too, and he said, No, don't even worry about it. That I was a good person. And his eyes weren't dead, and he was laughing and smiling, and it just felt like the person he was when I met him.. I just really really hope that he will continue to get help, and that he can find himself again. And the next day he fixed my gate for me when I told him it had a problem and he carried a very heavy bag of trash to the curb for me, and I said I was glad that we had apologized, and he said he was glad, that he had nothing against me, that it was all just caused by his tension.

so, it's lovely to have nice closure on it. Rob hasn't apologized for anything...... of course, he doesn't know I overheard him on the phone......... but he hasn't asked me out for a drink either, or spoken to me, or smiled........ and I just don't like him at all. Oh well, I figured when he was being nice to me that it would end sometime. He's just too messed up. I hope he will be okay too.


Sooooo, that's it. The end ( hopefully ) of the adventure that began with Love's Illusion in June. Maybe we will all be friends................. who knows ................ but it's been a rollercoaster, and I guess I can't regret the beautiful feelings I had this summer. It's just too bad they didn't realize how lucky they would be to have a loyal friend like me. And I know , crazy as it sounds, that I will miss them both.

[texasgal]

WF, you are too kind to miss these two characters after the way they have treated you. They don't deserve you.

These two sound like chronic abusers - abusing a woman one minute, then profusely apologetic later - only to abuse again. If they were to stay with you, this pattern of abuse would continue until the abuse became physical, not just verbal. And then the physical abuse would escalate until they put you into the hospital - or worse.

That's just my impression based on your description.

And call me a B, but there's no excuse to abuse someone just because you've had an accident or a death in the family. I've had both events happen to me, yet to treat my landlady that way - who has done nothing to deserve it - would be inexcusable.

I know I come off as heartless, but you're going to be so much better off without them. I'm so glad they are leaving.

Modified to add: Lisa, I'd love to do a painting of your dog for you. Just let me know.

[Looney Linn]

Tex is completely right!! You are lucky to be rid of that! It brought far too much chaos to your life. I felt chaotic just reading your postings!! And now you should be much happier to have them gone!

Lots of luck to you in getting on with your life.

[Mrs.Sylfian]

texasgal said:

I know I come off as heartless, but you're going to be so much better off without them.

You heartless.....please,your heart is bigger than Texas....

and i agree with you Tex,WF is better of without them....

its time to move compleatly,Wf you said this situation is a rollercoster ride.....aren`t you tired of riding up and down all the time?you will better off without them....somebody who smokes pot,talk behind your back is not worth your trust and your time....you better than that

good luck with that and keep us posted.......

xxx Sylciaxxx

[britgirl]

texasgal said:

WF, you are too kind to miss these two characters after the way they have treated you. They don't deserve you.

These two sound like chronic abusers - abusing a woman one minute, then profusely apologetic later - only to abuse again. If they were to stay with you, this pattern of abuse would continue until the abuse became physical, not just verbal. And then the physical abuse would escalate until they put you into the hospital - or worse.

That's just my impression based on your description.

Texasgal, that's exactly what I thought.

WilsonFreak, you're so much better off without those two treating you so shabbily. They disrespected you as a person and your home. Just not on. Good riddance to bad rubbish as the saying goes.

I hope it won't be too long before you find boarders who are aware of what a nice landlady you seem to be.

[WilsonFreak]

Thank you, dear ones!! Yes, I am tired of the rollercoaster and I'm so glad they are leaving! It was very chaotic, wondering what bad thing would happen next, living with Rob's anger issues and temper, worrying about smoking in my house and safety issues, living with Mike feeling so sorry for himself and treating everyone he should have cared about so badly.

So, it's really good!! I'm relieved they are going, and a friend I've known for over 5 years is moving in, with her boyfriend, who seems to be really nice, and who has already been putting up a fence for my dog that I've been trying to get put up since the beginning of summer, and her little baby who is 11 wks old.

Thanks for your posts, I really do appreciate them, and I was looking forward to coming online today to see if there were any here!! Thanks.

[britgirl]

I'm glad to hear that WilsonFreak. You sound like a person who deserves to be happy and stress free. Keep us posted on how things are at home won't you?